..::shrugs::...
Well anyway.. I went to Los Angeles about a week or so ago and while I was waiting for my first plane I started writing in my journal. I reflected back on it today and thought I'd blog it...
En-JIZ-OY! lol
..::March 25,2011::..
Sitting in the airport, dreaming of who/what I want to be... not really sure of who God wants me to be. I see myself traveling... going places...loving live...BUT how does God see me?! When God looks at me, what does He see? A painter, a guitar player, a public speaker?! I know who/what I DON'T want to be... a public speaker, intake coordinator, mediocre "LIVE-R!" lol I want to live life HAPPILY... not struggling... not "working toward where I want to be," but NEVER making progress.... But how do I do it?!
Where do I start? Do I pray? Do I just live until I receive THEE epiphany/revelation! Maybe I'm thinking too hard!! I should just chill, right?!... Yea, I'll chill! I know what I WON'T do... (God willing) I WON'T continue to work toward NOTHING!... struggle to make ends meet and NOT enjoy my life in the process! That was 2010 and I'm SO OVER 2010. If I want to take a trip... I'm TAKING A TRIP! If I want to meet up with a guy in L.A.... I'M MEETING UP WITH A GUY IN L.A.!! lol
I'm ready to live life with PEACE! That sounds so perfect!... almost TOO perfect! Is it wrong to want that at 23 years old? I hear people say all the time that their 20's were their worst years. Well, you know what?!... that won't be my story! Ok, I can say that the first three years of my 20's were the WORST... like that ish was for the "birds!" Man, I won't even put that on the birds! lol The next seven years of my 20's will be filled with peace and contentment that WILL trickle into my 30's, 40's... and so on! I've learned a lot and I will continue to learn and grown. My learning and growing process will be different from here on out though. No more turning left and running into every POT HOLE only to learn that I need to go back and turn right!! LOL... You feel me?!! I will pray... and wait for God to direct me in the right direction! No more listening to STIX... God... c'mon... I'M READY TO LIVE!!!
Kirk Franklin said it best... "I'm on my way to being WHO I AM!" Yep..that's my truth! and I'm walking in it now!!! Today is different... in the best way!
soo...Live, guys!... I PLAN TO!!
-Stix-
UNTIL NEXT TIME,
..::holla::..
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