Life is good.

So much has been going on lately.... I'll do my best to update you guys.

I haven't updated in forever because I couldn't stand to look at my blog. I didn't like what I saw and I wasn't sure what I wanted to do with it... so I just lived and neglected to blog. Sorry....

Here I am... with a new layout and updating my blog. I don't know where to start so I'll just type.

Life after my wreck has been so hard. I've had to learn to put my ego aside and ask for rides when I would much rather have a ride of my own. I had to depend on my friends, my mentor, my boyfriend at the time, and just go with the flow. smh... The lady that I hit tried to sue me for $15,000. lol I still don't understand that one. I mean, I'm the one who walked away with a totaled car. Her cousin drove her car from the scene. Where the heck did $15,000 come from?! Medical bills?!... Girl please. My money has been tight. I haven't been able to shop the way I want. I have a new apartment that isn't decorated the way I want and I DON'T HAVE CABLE!!! What the heezy?! Sounds bad, right?!

Well, I've been patient. God and I have talked about it on several occasions. All I knew to do was be patient, have faith, and watch God work. Looks like things are turning around... I mean, I had to file bankruptcy to keep the lady from garnishing my wages. I was once a bit upset about this, but I've learned to find the positive in the situation. God hasn't left me. In fact, God is really working over time for me. My credit was already jacked... The bankruptcy just may work out for my good. Scratch that... It WILL work out for my good. My friends were right there to help. My mom has been sick, so I was able to bring her truck back with me after visiting a couple of weekends ago. I was offered a job that pays more, with weekends and holidays off. I wasn't expecting that at all. It just fell in my lap one day.

See God is good. If I had any control, I wouldn't have written my story like this, but I can honestly say that I am happy with the way things are going. I've learned so much in this time and I still have joy! I AM a bit shocked by a thing or two and never would have expected things to end the way they did... but I can't focus too much on that. What's for me... and who's for me... IS FOR ME! And I honestly don't have the energy to worry or stress about it. lol As you can see, I'm not really ready to talk about that so much. You may be able to read between the lines... *shrugs*

School is going...umm... ok, I guess. I'm not as excited about it anymore. With all that's been going on, my focus has been off. Things are turning around though and my advisors have been pretty understanding. I don't regret this decision at all. Ashford University is definitely for me.

So yeah,... Life is good and I look forward to every lesson, every blessing, every DAY!!

Until next time,
♥ Stix

Beautiful, It's time!

I've been through a lot in the last few weeks. I'm grateful for each "trial" because I'm learning from them. I'm happy and am finding peace in it all, but I am tired. With all that's going on, I'm about ready for a break... a get-away... I need to just go!

Now, if I had a car, that would be easy! I would simply get in my car and go!! I'm not sure for how long. I'm not even sure where I would go. I would just GO! After a few weeks of the same routine, and constant mishap, I need an adventure, a spontaneous trip. Just God, Music, and me.

Ahhhh!!! It feels good just to think about it!

A few days ago, Sabrina and I were looking at one of my India Arie DVDs and she sang "Beautiful." I've heard that song time and time again. I've listened to the lyrics and couldn't connect with it... until THAT day!... and BOY did it minister!!

In this song she has reached a point where she is tired! It was finally time for her to pack her bags and get away. Not just anywhere, but Beautiful. That place where she could get-away and let go of some things. A quiet place where she could enjoy nature, a place of peace and understanding! A place where she could be without worry. A place where time doesn't matter. It was TIME for her to go...

I can finally connect to this song! I want to go to Beautiful. Not India's beautiful... but my own! I'm already thinking about where my Beautiful is... and I'm going! I have some things I need to step away from. I need to take a look at some things. Let go of some hurt and pain that is interfering with MY LIFE! I just need to go!!... and I will... Just God, Music, and me.

Beautiful ,It's time.

Until next time,

♥ Stix.

Music.

Sitting at work...

Bored out of my mind...

Until I ran into this...

Now... I'm stuck here.



I ♥ music.

I ♥ hearing why a song was written.

I ♥ when artists have a POSITIVE purpose for their music.

I ♥ real/raw talent.

This video... made me happy. I could watch this all day.

I was right there with Herbie at the end of this video. This music feels good... GOOD STUFF.

Until next time,
♥ Stix