I want to blog...

BUT I HAVE NOTHING SIGNIFICANT TO SAY...

UMM... UPDATE MUCH?!

OK!!

I got a new tattoo...

See!!

I got that JESUS PIECE ON MY ARM! lol It's small and PURPLE...AND I love it... It's healing rather WEIRDLY... but I'm gonna allow it to heal. It's not quite complete yet!

I also got my nose re-pierced. My "bestest" (Sequoia) and I went on the morning of Easter. LOL... DON'T JUDGE US!!... LOVE US... like Jesus does! lol So yea, what was I saying...

Anyway... yea... so... She has been wanting it for some time. She would only do it, if I did it too. I wasn't against it. Unfortunately, we didn't take a pic... It's so small, that it probably wouldn't show up in the pic anywa. I didn't want my nose ring to be extra big tho... if people see it, they see it! If they don't, they don't! I've had it before... so it's not really a big deal! It's cute,... I like it! Eventually I'll put the hoop in and be ROCKSTAR LIFESTYLE... but only on the weekends since I work for Corporate America!. Whomp, whomp! lol THANK GOD FOR A JOB!!... Next piercing... CARTILAGE... and then I'll be done... #ithink

I started my guitar lessons!!! Luckily, I still rememberd a lot of stuff so I'm learning theory!! GREAT!! I'm loving it! He is also teaching me the Nashville number/interval system because he knows that I'm intersted in doing studio sessions and stuff... EXXXCCCIIIITTTEEDD!!

Yea, yea!! So that's it!

Just wanted to say somethin' on this here blog...

Until next time,
♥ Stix

AIRPORT JOURNALLIN'

The airport has a way of FORCING you to think about your life... where you are... where you're going! You know what I'm talking about, right?! or am I the only one...

..::shrugs::...

Well anyway.. I went to Los Angeles about a week or so ago and while I was waiting for my first plane I started writing in my journal. I reflected back on it today and thought I'd blog it...

En-JIZ-OY! lol

..::March 25,2011::..

Sitting in the airport, dreaming of who/what I want to be... not really sure of who God wants me to be. I see myself traveling... going places...loving live...BUT how does God see me?! When God looks at me, what does He see? A painter, a guitar player, a public speaker?! I know who/what I DON'T want to be... a public speaker, intake coordinator, mediocre "LIVE-R!" lol I want to live life HAPPILY... not struggling... not "working toward where I want to be," but NEVER making progress.... But how do I do it?!

Where do I start? Do I pray? Do I just live until I receive THEE epiphany/revelation! Maybe I'm thinking too hard!! I should just chill, right?!... Yea, I'll chill! I know what I WON'T do... (God willing) I WON'T continue to work toward NOTHING!... struggle to make ends meet and NOT enjoy my life in the process! That was 2010 and I'm SO OVER 2010. If I want to take a trip... I'm TAKING A TRIP! If I want to meet up with a guy in L.A.... I'M MEETING UP WITH A GUY IN L.A.!! lol

I'm ready to live life with PEACE! That sounds so perfect!... almost TOO perfect! Is it wrong to want that at 23 years old? I hear people say all the time that their 20's were their worst years. Well, you know what?!... that won't be my story! Ok, I can say that the first three years of my 20's were the WORST... like that ish was for the "birds!" Man, I won't even put that on the birds! lol The next seven years of my 20's will be filled with peace and contentment that WILL trickle into my 30's, 40's... and so on! I've learned a lot and I will continue to learn and grown. My learning and growing process will be different from here on out though. No more turning left and running into every POT HOLE only to learn that I need to go back and turn right!! LOL... You feel me?!! I will pray... and wait for God to direct me in the right direction! No more listening to STIX... God... c'mon... I'M READY TO LIVE!!!

Kirk Franklin said it best... "I'm on my way to being WHO I AM!" Yep..that's my truth! and I'm walking in it now!!! Today is different... in the best way!

soo...Live, guys!... I PLAN TO!!

-Stix-

UNTIL NEXT TIME,

..::holla::..

JUST GOT MY NEW GLASSES!!!

Sooo... I went to the eye doctor about a month ago and found out that my eyes are sooooo MUCH WORSE than they used to be! :( Sadness...

Anyway... So now I have new glasses! Check 'em out!!

I call this look: PRESCRIPTION GREATNESS!!!!

Ok... I had to.... *shrugs* Sorry!!!

Ok, I'M ALL DONE!!!! DEUCES!

Until next time,

♥ Stix

Valentine's Day!!!

Hey!!! I've been meaning to post this for awhile, but my laptop is not acting right these days!!!

So yea... Here I am today posting about Valentine's day!!

How was yours?!.... Here's how mine went:

Valentine's Day was pretty much like any other Monday. The only difference was that we had all kinds of goodies at my job! We had a cute little Valentine's Day party and it was fun! For a single girl, I had A BLAST!!! I saw on twitter that a lot of people were upset that they weren't "boo'd up!" Me... I was GOOD!!!... STRAIGHT CHILLIN'!!! lol I wasn't looking for anything and was totally ok that I wasn't getting anything!!!...

or so I thought....

On my way home, I looked down at my phone and saw that I had two missed phone calls. One from a foreign number and another from my friend Darius. I forgot to take my phone off of silent when I got off. I called Darius back and he seemed really weird. He asked if I received a phone call from a 704 number and I told him "yes." I asked if I should call that number back, completely oblivious as to what was going on. He went ahead and shared that someone was calling to deliver a Valentine's Day gift to me. I was totally shocked and told him that he could tell the person to leave it outside of my door since I was on the way home.

Of course, I SPED home and saw that flowers and a cute teddy bear, Mr. Cuddlesworth, were outside of my door. I was totally shocked!! One thing that I LOVED was that he didn't send roses!!! You guys know that I HATE roses and figured he remembered. When we talked about it, he said that he didn't like the idea of giving me something that everyone else would receive that day!!! He sent red tulips and his reason was because "red" represents LOVE and the "tulips" represent FRIENDSHIP!!! The card that came with it was very sweet! It's in my wallet now so I read it all the time!! See.. guys... he is so sweet!!!

Ok... I know you're probably wondering... "how did he get your address?!" Well, he was in town about a month ago and he joined me and my friends in attending a few gospel concerts. We all talked about a dvd called "Blessed and Cursed" that Mali Music and Dietrick Haddon were in. He ended up buying it when he went back to Arkansas. He asked for my address so he could send it to me so I could watch it!!! THAT IS HOW HE GOT MY ADDRESS!! He knew all along that he was going to send the flowers for Valentine's Day... Me on the other hand, I was checking my mailbox every other day for the DVD!! lol

How sweet?!!! smh I really like this guy... and NOT just because of how thoughtful and genuinely sweet he is. It does play a part in it though!

This is one Valentine's Day to remember!! I'm not the type who wants a lot or cares much about Valentine's Day. However, I DO love a guy who takes a little time to think about what would make me happy!!! ya know? He is currently WINNING guys... He's winning! lol

Anyway, that's my Valentine's Day!! I hope yours was great!!!

Until next time,

♥ Stix

This is what happens when one of the bestie's has a MACBOOK PRIZZZZ-OOO!!

MY LOCKS TASTE LIKE ICE CREAM!!!.. Dark chocolate ice cream! Yum!

RAAA RAAA... like a dungeon DRAGON!!!!

I HAVE NOTHING FOR THIS!!!

DEUCES!!!!!

UNTIL NEXT TIME,

♥ Stix

uuuggghhhhh

You ever say something and then after you said it.... wish you hadn't said it AT ALL?

That's totally how I feel about that last blog! The cool thing about blogs is that IF I WANT... I could totally delete that blog and go about my business..

But I won't!

Those were honest feelings, but I do feel the need to add that I'm not looking to be in a relationship anytime soon!! I mean yea, I like the guy, but I'm not looking to be his girlfriend like tomorrow!!! I'm all for being friends and seeing where things go! I mean... dating my best friend is what I've always wanted...

So I'm cool with life where it is!!!


I felt that THAT needed to be added... cuz after reading the blog myself I would have to say I seemed THIRSTY THAN A MUG!!! LOL

Signing off 4real this time!!!

Until next time,
♥ Stix

Rambling.

So there's this guy.

Not just any guy....

A different guy..

But the same guy....

Get it?... Oh nevermind. It doesn't matter. All u need to know is that there IS a guy.

I like him and he doesn't know....

Which goes against who I am because when I like a guy I have NO PROBLEM telling him. In fact, most guys that I've dated have been because I reached out first. What can I say?!.... I go after what I want! lol That's not the case with this guy though. He saw me before I had any idea he existed... and then he reached out!

So yea...

We met years ago. Dated for months off and on and then we were no more. Why u ask?! Because I was still in love with someone else. I know... OUCH?! Unfortunately, he was the rebound guy. There was NOTHING wrong with this guy. He did everything right! He was kind, he genuinely cared about me, and was everything I looked for in a guy... physically!

He is....

Dark-skinned
4' inches taller than me
Can dress
Has the cutest lips
OH AND HE IS A DIE HARD FAN OF JESUS CHRIST!! (umm... yea, that's physical! It shows.)

and I let that go!!! smh LOOOOOOSING!!! So anyway... so he's back in the picture.... as a friend. We talk quite often and he has absolutely no idea that I like him again. I don't think I want him to know. Why?!... because I'm afraid that I'm not good for him! I mean really... there is something wrong with me....

I'm always down for a guy and then months later... I'm not into him anymore. I think it's a protective mechanism. I NEVER want to have my heart broken again... so what I do is get out before it's too late! I'm praying about it though... because I REALLLLY LIKE HIM! But in the meantime... I'll continue to protect his heart!

and then there's this "WHAT IF"...

WHAT IF...

he has ABSOLUTELY no interest in me as a girlfriend anymore! I mean, I did him wrong! smh I could QUITE POSSIBLY be LOSIN' right now!


Pray for me guys!!! lol


Whheeeww! I feel better already! Thanks for listening!!


Until next time,
♥ Stix